Are you ever just DONE?!? I hit that point recently when a day of doing typical things wore me out. I’ve been told to give myself a break, since I’ve had 6 children, but that is just an excuse to keep destroying myself. I can’t keep doing this, if I want to live a long life!
Things She didn’t teach me
Grandma wasn’t great about eating food that was good for her. There were ALWAYS sweets in the house. Grandma loved her sweets. I’m not just talking about mints, but gummy bears, circus peanuts, York Peppermint Patties, Chocolate Bars of all kinds, Maple Nut Clusters, just to name a few. If she loved it, Grandma had it. When I was a child this was great, but as I had children of my own this wasn’t so good. They would constantly beg for candy not having eaten dinner. When she was in her final years, I would catch her “sneaking” candy. I would ask if she was hungry and she would say, No, but she “needed” her candy.
It was one day while talking with my mom about how unhealthy this was, that I realize I do the same destructive things. When given options, I’d rather have the sweet than food that was good for me. I’d rather eat that donut, cupcake, cookie, last piece of pie, than make the effort to make myself a real breakfast. This had not only become my habit from being tired, but just a reality of my life.
I’m ready for a change
Since turning 40, I’ve found a lot of things have changed for me. I’m more tired. I’m easily irritable. I find myself wanting to be alone instead of going out. I’ve become more introverted. I’ve found myself judging others, not because of them but because of myself. I decide they aren’t going to like me before I give them a chance to decide for themselves, so I’m judging them before they get the chance to judge me.
I started hating myself and my life. It was during one of my self-pity sessions that I decided something had to change. I didn’t want to be alone. I didn’t want to spend my life without friends. My children weren’t going to be with me forever, so I best make an effort or I would be lonely. I knew how it felt now and I didn’t want to spend my life that way. A girl needs a tribe.
I knew this wasn’t about others but about how I saw myself. I needed to see myself in a new light. I needed to be able to look in the mirror and love the girl I saw, before I would feel like others liked me. I knew it would take time, but I was willing to put in the effort.
My personality makes me have a plan, I don’t like to do things on the fly. So I sat down thought about everything I knew about getting healthy and came up with a plan of attack. It took about a week to get everything pulled together, but that gave me enough time to start on May 2nd. This is going to be the next chapter in my life. This is the day; I get my healthy life back.
My plan has 6 parts, but they all go together to make me amazing.
Bedtime at 10pm
I have some serious insomnia issues, that isn’t helped by children who wake me up in the middle of the night. When I get a good nights’ sleep I’m able to face just about anything the world can throw at me. When I don’t get enough sleep, I can barely think let alone deal with my children. I had for the past few months started to get better with this, but Samuel decided to cut 6 teeth at once and things went wonky. Time to get back to taking care of myself.
Give Up Soft Drinks & Sugar
For me soft drinks are directly tied into the first thing. If I’m not getting enough sleep, I end up with exhaustion and migraines. I thought I was being healthy by not taking Excedrin for these, but instead turning to Coke and sugary snacks. While this helped with the headaches the crashes were hard and didn’t help. Not to mention they certainly didn’t help me lose weight. So they have to go!
I’ve found when I take my DoTerra vitamins consistently things are better, noticing an improvement not only in energy, but in emotional stability. They’ve been easy on my stomach, and aren’t hard to swallow. My Audrey, who is 16, takes them and has noticed a difference in herself. It never hurts to take a good vitamin and supplements.
I have a lot of pain. Most of it is due to knee problems from damage during high school. I know I need a knee replacement, and I’ve been putting it off for years. I’m determined to do it next year, but I want to lose the weight first. I want to be ready so I can be my best and recover quickly.
With that in mind, I’m going to walk every day. I’m going to start slowly and work myself up. I may hurt, but every day I’m going to get out there and walk. If I can’t get outside due to rain, I’m going to walk inside with a Youtube video called 1 Mile Happy Walk. It takes about 15 minutes and I’m done.
I plan on continuing my tradition of weighing myself once a week. Checking in weekly with you, my friends, to keep accountable. Nothing like sharing your journey to a healthier you than in a blog.
So that’s the plan. It really is simple: eat good food, get consistent sleep, get moving, NO sugar, take my vitamins and Thrive!